This Is

This is my family
This was before things changed
When we were mildly happy
and clueless
This was when i was young and unsure
This was before we all left
This photo exists beyond my life span
This photo is a lie

Photos of the millennium

Through the smoke and tears

The gunshots and screams

Every set of eyes distracted

Attention differed for the slightest moment.

Hidden in the background

A capsule to another world

A place filled with love not hate

Everything is so simple

We all want one thing

The only thing that can’t be won or bought

The one thing you won’t get from war and death

The only thing that sets us apart

The couple in the street

Expressing their heats to the world

Forgetting about the death and decay

And soaking in the warmth each other brings

This is how it’s supposed to be

This is the world we should live in.

 Cowards

Cowards are the ones hiding behind those shields

Blocking their own harm but providing it for others

For a mother and a child

Something every civilization relies on

To be a coward

Is to be obedient

Obedient when the orders are unjust

And when a greater power overrules them

The power of kindness

Love, trust, humaneness

To my knowledge

 These shields of men are no men at all

They get praised for their bravery in their own countries

How does this qualify as bravery or leadership?

We are all able to think for ourselves

And if none of these men saw this woman and child

And ruled in no regret for their unnecessary actions

Than they should go back home

And learn what it is to be a human being

And then try again.

Photo Hunt

This angle really compliments the dust and nastiness here at Kpoo. #dirtywindows

These new furniture sets are great at making teddy bear faces. #cuteandcuddly

Mrs. Stephens was my favorite teacher solely for her kindness and how much she believes in me. #lovethiswoman

Leslie is super lame but has funny jokes. #lol

Not completely sure what this was for, but the handwriting was pretty. #noteverythingisacompetition

Something square as well as a book with an awesome, non psychopathic leader on the cover. #kimjungew

Something pretty in a dark place. #schoolisthedarkplace

Circle seat ft. mine and Callie's fine choice in footwear. #finechoiceinfootwear

Nostalgic about the two years of cheer leading i put into this place but glad its over. #funwhileitlasted

101 Things

1.       I graduate high school in less than a month.

2.       At times I can get to be so lazy it’s sad.

3.       I’m 5’9.

4.       I like to read books about people far away from where I live. People who live extravagant lives and don’t even know that Springfield Missouri is a thing.

5.       I want to be one of those people in the books I read.

6.       I like to eat, a lot.

7.       I like to be skinny, a lot.

8.       I hate working out, a lot.

9.       But I enjoy competitive cheerleading, a lot.

10.   I’m super confused by the artificial importance people put into high school. By the boys and girls that forget about the life outside and after this exhausting adolescent transformation.

11.   I’m a victim of the One Direction infection.

12.   I cried for 3 straight hours, 2 days in a row when Zayn left the band.

13.   I’m taking my 20-year-old sister to prom with me because no boy would ask me.

14.   I’m really sad when I try to relive things I enjoyed in my childhood, but ends up not feeling the same or being as fun.

15.   My hands and feet are always freezing, so whatever that means.

16.   I do a lot of dares, especially for money.

17.   I want to move to California really bad, but truth is it scares me to death and I don’t know anything about the place.

18.   I want to make it big and be known before I die, I just don’t know how to get there.

19.   I have a white iPhone 5c.

20.   I named my mac “the beat” because I drop it all the time and I thought it was funny, but now I get embarrassed because people don’t get it.

21.   I make a lot of jokes that are weird and out there but still slightly tied into the conversation, and only a few people get them

22.   I hate high school.

23.   I don’t want to go to college, but I am.

24.   My blue eyes aren’t blue enough.

25.   My mom knows more about me than I do.

26.   My sister is my best friend.

27.   I have poor people skills but I seem to manage when I use a fake façade.

28.   I enjoy watching lots of movies.

29.   I like the not really known older movies that are kind of weird.

30.   I really appreciate well directed, acted, and edited movies, not matter the theme.

31.   101 things is too many.

32.   I’ve been to the casino once but I really enjoyed it and that’s scary.

33.   I have an older brother, but I don’t really know him even though his room is 10 feet away from mine.

34.   I’ve seen the one direction movie over 100 times.

35.   I like to read books that I can’t find any relation to with my life.

36.   When I was little, the zoo was my favorite thing. Still is.

37.   I’m scared to death to be out in public on my own. Not because I can’t be alone, but because I’m scared of men raping and killing me.

38.   I used to be the biggest flirt as a kid and came on to every guy.

39.   I had two best friends in preschool, and I can still picture them in my head, but I have no idea what their names are.

40.   I don’t like seeing the kids I grew up with, even though we were such close friends at one time. I hate feeling like I’ve changed even though it’s inevitable.

41.   I like the word inevitable.

42.   My parents are so in love it’s disgusting.

43.   The first cat I got, was the most amazing cat in the world and I loved home so much. But he died after 2 months due to a rare disease. That was the first time I saw my dad cry.

44.   I’ve never seen my mom cry until I turned 17. I always thought that she would never cry.

45.   I love music so much that it pains me when people don’t appreciate like I feel they should.

46.   I really want to try skydiving.

47.   I want to be able to fly a plane. Just in case.

48.   I have too many friends but at the same time not many.

49.   I like to be fashionable and different in a good way.

50.   My mom try’s to act like me to get me to befriend her more.

51.   I have a pink water bottle.

52.   I like soda way too much.

53.   Chips and queso is all I eat.

54.   And Chinese.

55.   That sounds so good right now.

56.   I think Keven Hart is hilarious, and attractive. But he’s too short.

57.   I’ve watched every episode of bobs burgers multiple times.

58.   Fifty-eight.

59.   I DON’T KNOW MYSELF WELL ENOUGH FOR THIS

60.    I enjoy tumblr

61.   Pandas are cute but I’m sad that they are endangered. L

62.   I love high heels, but I never wear them because I’m too tall.

63.   I like technology, but don’t want to rely on it.

64.   My legs are super long and my torso is short.

65.   I like babies but not toddlers.

66.   Every toddler I have babysat, I wasn’t that nice and cool of a nanny, but they always ended up loving me and falling asleep in my lap.

67.   I’m confused by kids.

68.   My sister is practically engaged and I can’t wait to be in a wedding for the first time.

69.   Haha.

70.   I’m very mature.

71.   I think of the rap air horn every time some says something mean.

72.   I get mad when my mom judges people.

73.   I’m a hypocrite about being a hypocrite.

74.   This is never ending

75.   It makes me sad that people don’t wear flip flops with their outfit as often anymore. So that’s all I do.

76.   I like shoes but my shoe game is weak.

77.   I hate the way high school boy’s talk but it’s rubbed off on me and I hate it.

78.   I seem to hate a lot of things, but I like a lot of things to I swear.

79.   This just keeps getting harder.

80.   My life is a constant “that’s what he said” joke.

81.   ALMOST THERE

82.   I attended a 5k and walked the whole thing when I was younger but told everyone I ran it in 7 minutes.

83.   My whole life I’ve picked my friends but I’m finally falling into place with some and it’s cool.

84.   I can’t wait to be out of high school so I can really not care, unlike this fake caring that I’m doing.

85.   My mind is telling me no, but my body, my body is telling me yessssss.

86.   Kidding

87.   I’ve been finding a lot of 16 year olds attractive lately and that’s not ok.

88.   Eighty-eight *wipes sweat from forehead*

89.   I’m terrified of butterflies all because of that one episode of SpongeBob.

90.   I still watch SpongeBob and lol at it.

91.   10 MOREEEEEEEEE

92.   9 MOREEEEEEE

93.   8 MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

94.   7 MOREEEEEEEEEEE

95.   6 MOREEEEEEEee

96.   I’m super lazy

97.   4 MORWEEEEEEE

98.   3 MOREEEEE

99.   I’m tired of counting down

100.                        Omg

101.                        bye

Lyrics Shuffle

Well, me I follow the dark.
The words are wrong, luck a lump in my throat.
Love me every single day
with the touch of a hand in mysterious ways.
I just wanna tell you I'm thinking
and I'm scared.
So honey now, follow me to the dark.

Teachers and Music

What Music or songs remind you of your childhood?

Beegies: Staying Alive

o   Declue

Who is you favorite singer or group or song and why?

Mr. Jones Counting Crows – Memories

o   Blackburn

What music reminds you of someone you love? Child? Spouse? Parents?

Avett brothers- love writes a letter- wire

o   Declue

Do you go to concerts? Which concerts are memorable to you? Why?

Yes, garthbroks, partied with him until 2am

o   Blackburn

What radio stations do you normally listen to in your car? Do you sing along?

88.3 and 92.9

o   Nance

Which music was controversial or offensive to some when you were growing up? Is any music offensive to you now?

Pink Floyd

o   Nance

Which music do you really dislike or refuse to listen too?

Beatles, Kanye west

o   Nance

Music Questions

1. While listening to music, I typically try to listen to songs that express what I’m feeling. Music just seems to put into words and almost tell me my thoughts on a situation. It can be very empowering as well as ground breaking.

3. Its changed quite a bit. Before, I kind listened to whatever my sister would listen too, or whatever was most popular at the time. But now if discovered a great deal of depth in music that just draws me in. I love music, I can listen to anything. But I prefer the songs that exhibit a great deal of talent. Talent through the vocals, in the rhythm, and in the words. When I song can paint a scene in my head and make me feel the way the artist did, then I’m in love.

5. My friends definitely have the same appreciation for music as I do. It’s just such a big part of my life and it’s something we like to share with each other. It’s important to us, of course we want to share it with each other and experience the gift of music together. Also, I like people who can appreciate talent when they hear it.

6. Without music, the world would be quite. People wouldn't know how to completely express themselves to others, a great deal of communication would be lost.

8. I admire the music of Ed Sheeran and Halsey, because they really know how to put the feeling into songs that they want the people listening to feel. They are poets with the way the word situations and everything in them. They also don’t go for the typical objective of love or lost, its distinct stories about whatever they want and it’s fabulous.