This Is

This is my family
This was before things changed
When we were mildly happy
and clueless
This was when i was young and unsure
This was before we all left
This photo exists beyond my life span
This photo is a lie

Photos of the millennium

Through the smoke and tears

The gunshots and screams

Every set of eyes distracted

Attention differed for the slightest moment.

Hidden in the background

A capsule to another world

A place filled with love not hate

Everything is so simple

We all want one thing

The only thing that can’t be won or bought

The one thing you won’t get from war and death

The only thing that sets us apart

The couple in the street

Expressing their heats to the world

Forgetting about the death and decay

And soaking in the warmth each other brings

This is how it’s supposed to be

This is the world we should live in.

 Cowards

Cowards are the ones hiding behind those shields

Blocking their own harm but providing it for others

For a mother and a child

Something every civilization relies on

To be a coward

Is to be obedient

Obedient when the orders are unjust

And when a greater power overrules them

The power of kindness

Love, trust, humaneness

To my knowledge

 These shields of men are no men at all

They get praised for their bravery in their own countries

How does this qualify as bravery or leadership?

We are all able to think for ourselves

And if none of these men saw this woman and child

And ruled in no regret for their unnecessary actions

Than they should go back home

And learn what it is to be a human being

And then try again.

Photo Hunt

This angle really compliments the dust and nastiness here at Kpoo. #dirtywindows

These new furniture sets are great at making teddy bear faces. #cuteandcuddly

Mrs. Stephens was my favorite teacher solely for her kindness and how much she believes in me. #lovethiswoman

Leslie is super lame but has funny jokes. #lol

Not completely sure what this was for, but the handwriting was pretty. #noteverythingisacompetition

Something square as well as a book with an awesome, non psychopathic leader on the cover. #kimjungew

Something pretty in a dark place. #schoolisthedarkplace

Circle seat ft. mine and Callie's fine choice in footwear. #finechoiceinfootwear

Nostalgic about the two years of cheer leading i put into this place but glad its over. #funwhileitlasted

101 Things

1.       I graduate high school in less than a month.

2.       At times I can get to be so lazy it’s sad.

3.       I’m 5’9.

4.       I like to read books about people far away from where I live. People who live extravagant lives and don’t even know that Springfield Missouri is a thing.

5.       I want to be one of those people in the books I read.

6.       I like to eat, a lot.

7.       I like to be skinny, a lot.

8.       I hate working out, a lot.

9.       But I enjoy competitive cheerleading, a lot.

10.   I’m super confused by the artificial importance people put into high school. By the boys and girls that forget about the life outside and after this exhausting adolescent transformation.

11.   I’m a victim of the One Direction infection.

12.   I cried for 3 straight hours, 2 days in a row when Zayn left the band.

13.   I’m taking my 20-year-old sister to prom with me because no boy would ask me.

14.   I’m really sad when I try to relive things I enjoyed in my childhood, but ends up not feeling the same or being as fun.

15.   My hands and feet are always freezing, so whatever that means.

16.   I do a lot of dares, especially for money.

17.   I want to move to California really bad, but truth is it scares me to death and I don’t know anything about the place.

18.   I want to make it big and be known before I die, I just don’t know how to get there.

19.   I have a white iPhone 5c.

20.   I named my mac “the beat” because I drop it all the time and I thought it was funny, but now I get embarrassed because people don’t get it.

21.   I make a lot of jokes that are weird and out there but still slightly tied into the conversation, and only a few people get them

22.   I hate high school.

23.   I don’t want to go to college, but I am.

24.   My blue eyes aren’t blue enough.

25.   My mom knows more about me than I do.

26.   My sister is my best friend.

27.   I have poor people skills but I seem to manage when I use a fake façade.

28.   I enjoy watching lots of movies.

29.   I like the not really known older movies that are kind of weird.

30.   I really appreciate well directed, acted, and edited movies, not matter the theme.

31.   101 things is too many.

32.   I’ve been to the casino once but I really enjoyed it and that’s scary.

33.   I have an older brother, but I don’t really know him even though his room is 10 feet away from mine.

34.   I’ve seen the one direction movie over 100 times.

35.   I like to read books that I can’t find any relation to with my life.

36.   When I was little, the zoo was my favorite thing. Still is.

37.   I’m scared to death to be out in public on my own. Not because I can’t be alone, but because I’m scared of men raping and killing me.

38.   I used to be the biggest flirt as a kid and came on to every guy.

39.   I had two best friends in preschool, and I can still picture them in my head, but I have no idea what their names are.

40.   I don’t like seeing the kids I grew up with, even though we were such close friends at one time. I hate feeling like I’ve changed even though it’s inevitable.

41.   I like the word inevitable.

42.   My parents are so in love it’s disgusting.

43.   The first cat I got, was the most amazing cat in the world and I loved home so much. But he died after 2 months due to a rare disease. That was the first time I saw my dad cry.

44.   I’ve never seen my mom cry until I turned 17. I always thought that she would never cry.

45.   I love music so much that it pains me when people don’t appreciate like I feel they should.

46.   I really want to try skydiving.

47.   I want to be able to fly a plane. Just in case.

48.   I have too many friends but at the same time not many.

49.   I like to be fashionable and different in a good way.

50.   My mom try’s to act like me to get me to befriend her more.

51.   I have a pink water bottle.

52.   I like soda way too much.

53.   Chips and queso is all I eat.

54.   And Chinese.

55.   That sounds so good right now.

56.   I think Keven Hart is hilarious, and attractive. But he’s too short.

57.   I’ve watched every episode of bobs burgers multiple times.

58.   Fifty-eight.

59.   I DON’T KNOW MYSELF WELL ENOUGH FOR THIS

60.    I enjoy tumblr

61.   Pandas are cute but I’m sad that they are endangered. L

62.   I love high heels, but I never wear them because I’m too tall.

63.   I like technology, but don’t want to rely on it.

64.   My legs are super long and my torso is short.

65.   I like babies but not toddlers.

66.   Every toddler I have babysat, I wasn’t that nice and cool of a nanny, but they always ended up loving me and falling asleep in my lap.

67.   I’m confused by kids.

68.   My sister is practically engaged and I can’t wait to be in a wedding for the first time.

69.   Haha.

70.   I’m very mature.

71.   I think of the rap air horn every time some says something mean.

72.   I get mad when my mom judges people.

73.   I’m a hypocrite about being a hypocrite.

74.   This is never ending

75.   It makes me sad that people don’t wear flip flops with their outfit as often anymore. So that’s all I do.

76.   I like shoes but my shoe game is weak.

77.   I hate the way high school boy’s talk but it’s rubbed off on me and I hate it.

78.   I seem to hate a lot of things, but I like a lot of things to I swear.

79.   This just keeps getting harder.

80.   My life is a constant “that’s what he said” joke.

81.   ALMOST THERE

82.   I attended a 5k and walked the whole thing when I was younger but told everyone I ran it in 7 minutes.

83.   My whole life I’ve picked my friends but I’m finally falling into place with some and it’s cool.

84.   I can’t wait to be out of high school so I can really not care, unlike this fake caring that I’m doing.

85.   My mind is telling me no, but my body, my body is telling me yessssss.

86.   Kidding

87.   I’ve been finding a lot of 16 year olds attractive lately and that’s not ok.

88.   Eighty-eight *wipes sweat from forehead*

89.   I’m terrified of butterflies all because of that one episode of SpongeBob.

90.   I still watch SpongeBob and lol at it.

91.   10 MOREEEEEEEEE

92.   9 MOREEEEEEE

93.   8 MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

94.   7 MOREEEEEEEEEEE

95.   6 MOREEEEEEEee

96.   I’m super lazy

97.   4 MORWEEEEEEE

98.   3 MOREEEEE

99.   I’m tired of counting down

100.                        Omg

101.                        bye

Lyrics Shuffle

Well, me I follow the dark.
The words are wrong, luck a lump in my throat.
Love me every single day
with the touch of a hand in mysterious ways.
I just wanna tell you I'm thinking
and I'm scared.
So honey now, follow me to the dark.

Teachers and Music

What Music or songs remind you of your childhood?

Beegies: Staying Alive

o   Declue

Who is you favorite singer or group or song and why?

Mr. Jones Counting Crows – Memories

o   Blackburn

What music reminds you of someone you love? Child? Spouse? Parents?

Avett brothers- love writes a letter- wire

o   Declue

Do you go to concerts? Which concerts are memorable to you? Why?

Yes, garthbroks, partied with him until 2am

o   Blackburn

What radio stations do you normally listen to in your car? Do you sing along?

88.3 and 92.9

o   Nance

Which music was controversial or offensive to some when you were growing up? Is any music offensive to you now?

Pink Floyd

o   Nance

Which music do you really dislike or refuse to listen too?

Beatles, Kanye west

o   Nance

Music Questions

1. While listening to music, I typically try to listen to songs that express what I’m feeling. Music just seems to put into words and almost tell me my thoughts on a situation. It can be very empowering as well as ground breaking.

3. Its changed quite a bit. Before, I kind listened to whatever my sister would listen too, or whatever was most popular at the time. But now if discovered a great deal of depth in music that just draws me in. I love music, I can listen to anything. But I prefer the songs that exhibit a great deal of talent. Talent through the vocals, in the rhythm, and in the words. When I song can paint a scene in my head and make me feel the way the artist did, then I’m in love.

5. My friends definitely have the same appreciation for music as I do. It’s just such a big part of my life and it’s something we like to share with each other. It’s important to us, of course we want to share it with each other and experience the gift of music together. Also, I like people who can appreciate talent when they hear it.

6. Without music, the world would be quite. People wouldn't know how to completely express themselves to others, a great deal of communication would be lost.

8. I admire the music of Ed Sheeran and Halsey, because they really know how to put the feeling into songs that they want the people listening to feel. They are poets with the way the word situations and everything in them. They also don’t go for the typical objective of love or lost, its distinct stories about whatever they want and it’s fabulous.

Art Walk

 Coffee Stains

*A haiku about coffee*

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I find a certain comfort in coffee that's difficult to explain. I guess it just reminds me of home, and a sense of safety runs through my veins. It’s as if I could be surrounded by strangers in an unknown city in an unknown place, and if someone were to put a coffee in my hands, I’d be okay. I’d be calm, unstoppable. Clear minded and able to take down anyone or anything. Now that’s a lot to put on just a highly caffeinated drink, and I may have exaggerated a bit. But the feeling is real.

I’m a klutz, I get in a rush and don’t pay attention enough to not have a million coffee stains on all of my clothes and floors. But I’m not angry, yeah it’s embarrassing and sometimes an inconvenience, but now it’s truly mine. Now I have another shirt to wear in the house while drinking coffee and being lazy. How am I supposed to enjoy coffee if I were to fret about every little consequence that may come with it? That is how Americans are right? Ignore the harsh realities and burdens that come with the toxic things we love and do. So I guess I’m American and as ignorant as the rest of the population. But damn coffees good.

{Pillow} Talk

My pillow holds dreams

They are seen in its image

It tells my secrets.

Every night, as I lay my head for a long nights rest, dreams begin to dance throughout my mind. The display themselves to me, hiding little messages. Sometimes these messages may have a deeper meaning and show me how I’m feeling about a subject in my life. Other times it may be just silly remakes of small details I picked up throughout the day before. Either way, my life is constantly haunting my dreams and expressing even the darkest thoughts hidden in the dusty corners of my mind. My pillow, being the provider of a safe and neutral environment for these stories, also becomes the care holder for them. My pillow becomes my memory of even the smallest dreams that I may forget, and therefore, it is my biggest enemy. 

SONGS

"First Time" -Vance Joy

Come over to my house jump in the neighbor's pool, it felt nice, felt so nice
And it was getting dark, you wrapped your long legs around me, I held on tight
Lying in my bed the unfamiliar sheets felt so cool on your skin
When your daddy called said you were at a friend's
And we walked the long way home

Going on, my first impression, I recall you wearing white
There was something sweet in the air, babe, that summer night
There will always be another time for us to fall in love
But it never cuts you quite as deep as that first time
You'll find out that the deepest cut is the first time
The first times always cut the deepest

Breathe me with your hands
Show me a safe place and I'll come down, yeah I'll come down
Can you recognize the look upon my face?
It's on my lips, it's in my eyes
This bar will never break, won't you say it one more time
Won't you say my name, won't you say my name
This bar will never break, won't you say, say my name

Going on, my first impression, I recall you wearing white
There was something sweet in the air, babe, that summer night
There will always be another time for us to fall in love
But it never cuts you quite as deep as that first time
You'll find out that the deepest cut is the first time
The first times always cut the deepest

Going on, my first impression, I recall you wearing white
There was something sweet in the air, babe, that summer night
There will always be another time for us to fall in love
But it never cuts you quite as deep as that first time
You'll find out that the deepest cut is the first time
The first times always cut the deepest

"Interlude: Moving On" -Paramore

Let 'em have their time
Sit back and let 'em shine
Let 'em rise and rise
Cause one day they're gonna fall

Let 'em soak in the sun
Sit back and let 'em have their fun
Let 'em spill their guts
Cause one day they're gonna slip on 'em

Well I could be angry
But you're not worth the fight
And besides I'm moving on

I've counted to ten
And I'm feeling alright
And besides I'm moving on

Let 'em play their songs
Let 'em say what's right and wrong
Let 'em do their thing
Cause they'll never be you and me

We got our own style
We got a way of livin' life
If they can't get down
Well we don't need them around

Well I could be angry
But you're not worth the fight
And besides I'm moving on

I've counted to ten
And I'm feeling alright
And besides I'm moving
Yes I'm moving

Besides I'm moving

 on

"Fallingforyou" -The 1975

What time you coming down?
We started losing light.
I'll never make it right
If you don't want me around,
I'm so excited for the night,
All we need's my bike and your enormous house
You said some day we might
When I'm closer to your height
'Til then we'll knock around, endlessly
You're all I need

Don't you see me now?
I think I'm falling, I'm falling for you,
Don't you need me?
I, I think I'm falling, I'm falling for you,
And on this night and in this light,
I think I'm falling, I'm falling for you
Maybe you'll change your mind
I think I'm falling, I think I'm falling

I'm caught on your coat again
You said, "Oh, no, it's fine,"
I read between the lines
And touched your leg again, again
I'll take you one day at a time,
Soon you will be mine,
Oh but I want you now (I want you now)
When the smoke is in your eyes,
You look so alive,
Do you fancy sitting down with me? Maybe?

You're all I need
According to your heart,
My place is not deliberate,
Feeling of your arms
I don't wanna be your friend,
I wanna kiss your neck

Don't you see me?
I, I think I'm falling, I'm falling for you
Don't you need me?
I, I think I'm falling, I'm falling for you
And on this night and in this light
I think I'm falling, I'm falling for you
Maybe you'll change your mind

Works Inspired by Edward Hopper

I am the clown. Of course I don't actually look like that, but that's how it feels on the inside. Going out in public with friends, family, anyone. standing out as the odd ball of the group. I interrupt this piece of work as how people feel inside. I know everyone is different. But only ourselves think we stand out for it. This is a representation on how our minds work when we're self conscious.
Story-
I've been so stressed lately. With work, practice, and Zayn leaving One Direction, I've been breaking out like crazy and eating way too much. My eyes are a constant puffball from all the crying and lack of sleep. So when my friends asked me to go out to dinner with them, I was a little skeptical at first. But I decided that this is an opportunity to eat and hopefully feel better.
Getting to the restaurant, I feel like everyone's staring at me, even my friends. Suddenly, i see myself as a clown. A clown for thinking i could do this. A clown for getting out of the house when i know i look so wrecked. Scarfing down my dinner as fast as I can, I make some poor excuse to get the Hell out of there.on the walk home, I start to feel bad again. About all my previous problems, and now for the freak show I just put on. I'm such a clown.

Clay Story

1. It was made with hands and clay.
2. I made it.
3. The clay came form mud.
4. Its for art and to represent human beings. 
5. It reminds me of two faced people.
6. Its something else. Just an interesting face.
7. Its modern art.

Artist Profile: Freddie Ardley

Freddie Ardley
He is currently 23 years-old, and found his love for landscape photography at the age of 19. He currently has four clients varying in origins. He is from London, UK and has already received 10 awards for his works in the matter of 4 years. He has been compared to the greats and is often commented that his works are very mature despite his age and the fact that he self taught everything he knows.






My favorite works are:


Something Different.

                                                           Flowers in the Floorboard

Poems for Paintings: Freddie Ardley

The street corner stands

between a guy and a gal.
Creating a force field
withstanding the laws
that "man and women will not touch".
And in a world like this
humans don't feel what makes us alive.
Creating a world
for the spiritually lifeless immortals inside.

The story of the man

seen in the smoke

is a far fetched tale

about an ordinary bloke. 

The man lived alone

with nothing to call his own.

He tried and he tried 

but could never break free.

Sobbing and unhappy

he lights a match 

so he can never be sappy,

 so he will never be back.

Dan in Real Life

2. -Dont forget what you went through/ felt when you were a teenager.
-Really try to listen and understand them.
- Give space at all the right times, but still apply the rules.
3. If I did, i think it would be very satirical about the dumb things people do.
5. 16. I wasn't allowed to date until I was 16. If they start too young, it ruins what they have left in their childhood. Also, they don't know anymore than what others tell them, so they could end up making mistakes too young that they cant undo.
6. Yes, I always want the truth, but I know that if what I think is right is confirmed, that would be my worst nightmare. But I'd have to get over it.
8. Someone is a hottie when I'm attracted to them, Hair, eyes, smile, height, style.
9. I personally don't think your family should be involved with getting you a date. I wouldn't want my family to meet a guy i don't know very well. And have him to turn out to be some loser or jerk, and then my parents think thats the kind of guy I like.

Reely Good Quotes

Reel Life

1.     My favorite movie is “Now is Good”.  It’s an English film, about a girl with cancer, whom decides to quit treatment and do the things she wants to do before its too late. I bawl my eyes out at the end of this movie every time, and Dakota Fanning's acting is great, but it isn’t the greatest produced movie ever. I enjoy it because the majority of it shows her being a teenager and crossing things off her bucket list. I like to think that I relate to it, our attitudes are about the same, and I believe I would want to do the same things as her if I knew I didn’t have long left in this world.

2.     I usually don’t care much for action movies. Although I have seen a few good ones, things blowing up and cars flipping in the air don’t really tickle my fancy.

3.     I watch at least one movie everyday, or a good chunk of one. I usually have already seen them if its like that though. In my room or the living room with my mom is where I have witnessed the most movie, I believe.

4.     While watching a movie, my clothing usually needs to be comfortable, or I wont be able to sit still and enjoy the movie. Same goes for the seat, also I nice drink. Although I may not need food, it is always accepted with warm arms.

5.     42%-Extraverted

42%- Agreeable

50%- Conscientious

17%- Emotionally stable

75%- Open to new experiences

        6.  If my life were made into a movie, I would want Cara Delevingne to play me. Not only because she is a beautiful, blonde model, but she has an attitude and spunk about her. My plots would be about me finding myself, building self-restraint and confidence, relying on my family for love and support, and just being able to hurdle day to day complications. I think they’re would be some very sad parts along with weird ones, just because I am weird. But my awesome sense of humor in situations, and the thoughts that go through my head would keep it from getting too depressing. My family is very warm and interesting, we’re all very moody people and maybe too comfortable with each other when it comes to discussions. So that would also be a very intriguing factor in the movie. Thinking about this, I would definitely enjoy watching a movie about my life. But only if it was done with justice.